Wish I was the boss

I've often been told that a blog is much like a journal and can be used for personal relief in the form of venting.  Today I feel the need to do so, not only for my own sake but maybe for someone else coping with a same issue.   I'm  not the same person I used to be,  I feel the change.   I have gained this buddie (more like enemy) that leaves me worried and filled with anxiety.   I'm not gonna say that I have anxiety but I do have moments where my thoughts make me anxious and worried.   It really is like having a controlling friend,  I can't seem to shake the feelings I have.  Its nerve racking,  I've had break downs where all I can do is cry to my husband.   I'm grateful he's there to listen,  Its like I'm experiencing this because he's in my life now.  He's definatley my strength to overcome.   I struggle with Migraines and the constant fear of having one makes me sick,  sick to the point that I probably cause my Migraines.   I don't know what to do anymore to relieve them except cry.   So on to my title of the post  (I wish I was the Boss).  

Not only do I feel sometimes like I'm not the boss of my body and have to remind myself I am,  I also wish I was my own boss at work.   I had a Migraine yesterday that left me with uneasyness and fear today.   I just wasn't feeling work today,  everything was making me upset  just the idea of helping stupid mean people today made me want to scream.   So I messaged my boss told her I just was not feeling good and would need to leave.   She messages me back and says well you may have to wait until everyone has had there lunches.   (HELLO WOMEN I JUST TOLD YOU I DON'T FEEL GOOD)  no I didnt say this to her but I said I will try.   They immediately after i get 1300 in one dollar bills.  (YOU HAVE GOT TO BE KIDDING ME)  Fighting through my tears to get through it  and becoming a nervous wreck I get done and reply to my boss I can't stay.   Don't hear anything back until like 10 min later the assistant comes and says you'll have to wait until the afternoon boy comes in early to cover you (HELLO WOMEN I DON'T FEEL GOOD ).   What the crap is wrong with people.  I know there trying to run a business, but people get sick people can't control some sicknesses.   If I was a boss, I would be sympathetic to peoples needs.   Why did they need me to stay when they had more then enough people there and two managers who can fill in and you have ths teller here whos been in the back balling her eyes out calling her husband and is struggling to give your members the help they need.    It takes a lot of nerve and courage to call in sick or even request to leave early.   Its embarassing to say the least.  Its embarassing to be crying and see them witness it.   I'm humiliated,  I don't know how to go back and not be embarassed. 

Sorry for the venting but sometimes crying just doesn't help all your anger get out.   So I ask those who want to respond,  what gets you going after being down?  What helps you when your struggling with worry and fear?

My Birthday Boy

It was my home boys birthday this past weekend so we celebrated a little. His birthday being on a Sunday this year I let him open his gifts on Saturday night.  We woke up and went to church and that lucky duck got to play with nursery kids for his birthday.   Later that night we went to Hepworth family dinner.   I hope he had a great birthday,  I'm definately grateful he was born.   We were both lucky enough to have the Monday after his  b-day off so we played a little and went to dinner at Tucanos.   I think that was his favorite part of the birthday. 

waiting patiently to open gifts

iTunes gift card

some cozy slippers

We also had the opportunity to go to the Bountiful temple the Saturday before his birthday, such a pretty temple and a great experience.

All Ya Need Is Love

Really all ya need is Love

Oh and maybe big Lips like these hahah

our cute Valentine from my nephew Tanner

 

 

Daniel and I had a great V-day,  growing up I always remember my parents doing something special for us on Valentines day and I think thats why I always loved it so much.  I looked forward to this year because me and Daniel weren't together last year for v-day and I just love him and wanted to spoil him.   Well he sure suprised me, the day before Valentines day he had Tulips delivered to me at work.  I was totally shocked and happy.  The place he got them sends them not quite bloomed so that you can have a week to enjoy them instead of a few days. 

 

 

day I got them

day after V-day

 

 

I'm terrible at keeping secrets and especially from Daniel I usually tell him about something I got him or can't wait to give it to him so I give it early, so because he gave his gift early I gave him his that night too.  I got him some peanut M&M's.   On V-day I came home and made a heart shaped pizza and dipped some strawberries in chocolate.  The evening wouldn't be complete without Guarana (Brazilian drink)  in wine glasses of course.   I set up a blanket in the living room and we had ourselves a little picnic.   It was so fun and I think he was really suprised.

 

I even gave in and let him open one of his birthday gifts (I told ya I have a problem with early gifting )  He got a soccer ball, since his mission to Brazil he's loved soccer.   He will be taking a soccer class soon with school so I thought this would help out.  The colors were rad too.  

 

 

So thats our Valentines Day

 

 

I sure do love my Hubby.   I'm so grateful that he chose me as his wifey and that we are eachothers Valentine.   I'm so grateful to have him as my best friend and that our relationship is as great as it is.  He is truely the best and I'm so lucky to have him. 

 

Defending the Red White and Pink

AKA the Lovers Holiday


I love Valentines Day (period)  yes its a very commercialized Holiday, but its still a Holiday.   Many people hate the holiday mainly because a lot of time they don't have someone to celebrate with or they don't think that one day should be the day to express your love for your certain someone.   Some people need to stop being haters and start using it as an extra day to share your love.  Yes I tell my husband I love him everyday, Yes I kiss and hug him everyday, and Yes I do nice things for him and him back to me all the time.   I still can't wait for V-day, because I hope to do it more that day.   Holidays are meant to be spent with loved ones and celebrate, why is Valentines any different. 

So just incase my hubby reads this I wont post my plans but I hope to after.  I'll show you my cute love decorated house though.  

Got these cute XoXo signs at Tei Pan with the Christmas gift card Daniel got me.

Love decor

 

 

 

 

 

I also wanted to share a great recipe I made a couple Sundays ago.  Its called Monterey Chicken,  Its on Chilis menu.  Well Daniel loves it so much so I found a recipe and tried it out.  I also liked it and will be adding it to our recipe book.  

I took frozen Chicken breasts I pre cooked them a little because cooking Chicken kind of scares me for how long and it being cooked long enough.   You take the chicken spread bbq sauce on both sides wrap in uncooked bacon cook in oven until chicken is done and bacon crispy.  Take out of oven sprinkle with colby jack cheese (I used fiesta blend)  then place choped tomatoes (I used rotel tomatoes with green chilis)  and green onions and place back in oven until cheese is melted. 

I served with some garlic rice and a veggie.